Freak Out! My Life with Frank Zappa: Laurel Canyon 1968 - 1971

Freak Out! My Life with Frank Zappa: Laurel Canyon 1968 - 1971

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This new, revised and updated edition of Freak Out! My Life with Frank Zappa by Pauline Butcher will be released in a slightly smaller paperback "B" format。

Pauline Butcher realised after she had written the first edition of Freak Out! My Life with Frank Zappa that she no longer needed to live in his shadow。 This realisation, along with the success of the book, gave her new confidence。 In the first edition, she upgraded all of the women in Frank Zappa's life and downgraded herself。 With this new confidence, she has revised her book so that the relationship between Frank and her is the central thread。

Living and working at Zappa's log cabin for four years, Pauline spent her days and nights in the company of Hollywood royalty。 From drinking sessions with Mick Jagger and Marianne Faithfull to visits from Eric Clapton and Captain Beefheart, Pauline brings to life the realities behind the perceived glamour of Hollywood, and paints a perceptive picture of the creative process of Frank Zappa's writing and the backdrop that inspired it。

In a new chapter about the Charles Manson murders of Sharon Tate and her guests, which happened just a few miles away from the log cabin, her musings on how quickly 'life could change from major to minor' provide a fascinating insight into the experience of living in Hollywood with a musical legend at a time when it felt like no one could be trusted。 With this background of chaos that brought an end to the optimism of the sixties, this book captures the intense experience of a young woman thrust into the madness, both within the log cabin and beyond。

Freak Out! My Life with Frank Zappa is a coming of age story in the 1960s with Women's Liberation being the driving force to change。 This new revised edition will contain a wealth of new material, including a dossier of what happened to the cast of characters who hung out at the log cabin and who drift through Pauline's story, excerpts from the author's private letters home about life in Hollywood, and five interviews which Pauline conducted with Frank Zappa, published here for the first time, on subjects as diverse as parenting, children, AIDS, composing and evangelism。 All these come together to create a revelatory portrait of Frank Zappa and the strange and unique friendship that the author had with him。

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Reviews

Kim Cooper

As the long suffering wife of a mad Zappa fan, I was totally unprepared for how much I enjoyed reading this book。 Pauline Butcher had a fascinating few years working and living with Frank, his wife and their family。 It was refreshing to hear her thoughts on this complex musician。 I cant say that I like Frank Zappa as a person or even his music, but this book is so interesting。 I found it hard to put down。 A fab read and one that gives an insight on how mad the world of rock music can be。

Bo Frazer

I read about 99% escapist fiction, so it would have to be a weird niche kinda topic to make me deviate。 Zappa qualifies。 Having read it, I am just as glad that I never actually met him, though I was a huge fan in the 60’s。 Great seeing the author’s evolution from a secretary into a writer。

Biggus

As a lifelong Zappa fan, it is probably impossible to be totally objective, but, I found the book to be very well written, perfectly narrated, and a pleasure to read。 I loved it。 And Frank。

theindianreadingduo

Book - Freak Out (My life with Frank Zappa)Author - Pauline ButcherGenre - Biography & Memoirs🎸 Freak out is an eventful story of a young girl who by chance happens to be in Frank Zappa's life and her journey in the mad world of this musical legend。 Reading it was altogether great experience since it not just takes us through the late sixties rock n roll world but also throws lights on the realities behind the Hollywood's perceived glamour。🎸Beginning as typing lyrics for Frank to being a persona Book - Freak Out (My life with Frank Zappa)Author - Pauline ButcherGenre - Biography & Memoirs🎸 Freak out is an eventful story of a young girl who by chance happens to be in Frank Zappa's life and her journey in the mad world of this musical legend。 Reading it was altogether great experience since it not just takes us through the late sixties rock n roll world but also throws lights on the realities behind the Hollywood's perceived glamour。🎸Beginning as typing lyrics for Frank to being a personal secretary with handling his jobs such as running his fan clubs, organising his events, recording session, live appearances, handling his meets with stars like Tiny Tim, Mick Jagger, Jeff Beck, Pink Floyd etc was like knowing in and out about his life with no fancy words and loose ends。 It will be insightful for Zappa's fans since he was quite known for enigmatic yet unpredictable personality。 Story doesn't showcase the depth of musical or technical aspects, but the overall coverage is satisfactory to length。🎸Miss Butcher has not played with words in writeups。 The book is very real and not pretentious or has no feed for gossip mongers, but could have been short I personally felt。🎧 I would like to thank @Netgalley for providing me this wonderful audiocopy😊The narration is lovely especially the voice of Frank and his band mates is notable by Emma Gregory。 。。。more

Slow Culture Magazine

Too gossipy for my taste。 Managed to read half of it。

Dan

Thank you NetGalley for an advanced copy of this audio book。Freak out! by Pauline Butcher and read by Emma Gregory is a coming of age memoir of a naive English woman whose life is changed when she answers a call for a typist in the year 1968。 Her employer was Frank Zappa, a musician she had never heard of who proceeds to change her life。 Her naivety seems strange for her young woman who models and teaches modeling and seems so chic in many ways。 Soon after learning she was crushing on a married Thank you NetGalley for an advanced copy of this audio book。Freak out! by Pauline Butcher and read by Emma Gregory is a coming of age memoir of a naive English woman whose life is changed when she answers a call for a typist in the year 1968。 Her employer was Frank Zappa, a musician she had never heard of who proceeds to change her life。 Her naivety seems strange for her young woman who models and teaches modeling and seems so chic in many ways。 Soon after learning she was crushing on a married man, which Frank never mentioned during their time in London, she is asked by Frank to aid him on a book he'd been commissioned for。 Thinking this would be her ticket to a world of fame, and mingling with those that counted she agrees, staying with his family in their new home/studio。 Again the naive oh I didn't expect this, does get a tad annoying but her portrayals of those, famous, infamous and other in Frank's circle are very interesting。 A notable book for both fans of Zappa and of the social history of the era。 The narration is both clear and amusing, especially the voice she gives Frank and some of his band mates。 Very enjoyable。 。。。more

John Jansen

Well written memoirs。 I enjoyed every word in it。

Ralph Maughan

Poorly written sleaze by someone who hardly knew him。 She might have seen him walk through the office, but it's clear a romance never happened。 Poorly written sleaze by someone who hardly knew him。 She might have seen him walk through the office, but it's clear a romance never happened。 。。。more

Lukasz Pruski

"[。。。] no one had played his records on the radio and yet over twenty years, he'd sold enough records to make him a rich man。 Even John Lennon, when he visited Frank, had been deferential。 'I may be popular, but he is the real thing。'"Yes, Frank Zappa was the real thing in music。 He was also a man of many contradictions so it probably is not astonishing that while most of his life he wanted to make "serious" music he built most of his fame and made most of his money in the "unserious" rock genre "[。。。] no one had played his records on the radio and yet over twenty years, he'd sold enough records to make him a rich man。 Even John Lennon, when he visited Frank, had been deferential。 'I may be popular, but he is the real thing。'"Yes, Frank Zappa was the real thing in music。 He was also a man of many contradictions so it probably is not astonishing that while most of his life he wanted to make "serious" music he built most of his fame and made most of his money in the "unserious" rock genre。 He was, or at least tried to be, a real artist, yet many people know him only for outrageous, shocking performances, associations with various "freaks", and occasionally puerile behavior and offensive sense of humor。Pauline Butcher's FREAK OUT! My life with Frank Zappa (2011) is a very good read: unpretentious, not gossipy, and, in fact, quite serious。 It begins in 1967 when Ms。 Butcher, 21 years old at the time, was hired as a temp to type some lyrics for Frank Zappa when he was visiting London。 Not only did he tremendously impress her when they met, but he liked her too。 It is quite possible that he liked her exactly for what she says he did: she was a straight-laced, forthright, prim young woman: a marked contrast with people who usually surrounded him - his "entourage of freaks。"I do not like the misleading publisher's trick on the back cover: one sentence of the blurb is emphasized in big font: "'Do you think if we f**ked, you could still work for me as my secretary?' - Frank Zappa" thus implying that there is a lot about sex in the book。 Blessedly that's not true! A reader who is looking for salacious details of freak orgies will be severely disappointed。 Yes, there is a bit about Cynthia the Plaster Caster (Wikipedia has a nice article about her), but that's basically it。Ms。 Butcher worked as Frank Zappa's secretary from 1968 to 1972, and lived with Zappa family and his entourage in the famous Log Cabin in Hollywood Hills for most of that period。 The reader gets a glance into the everyday life of the admittedly strange group of people occupying the residence, of which Mr。 Zappa and Ms。 Butcher seem to be the most "normal", whatever the word may mean。This is really a good read - I am repeating myself - the writing is refreshingly amateurish (in a good way!) and the descriptions of events and characters quite believable, even such details as Ms。 Butcher's tribulations with hearing the f-word and resisting its use herself。 I have learned a lot of new things about Frank Zappa even though I have already read several books about him including a great biography that I reviewed here on Goodreads Zappa。 A Biography (other titles of books on Zappa are included in that review)。 Ms。 Butcher's great characterization of Frank Zappa is included below the rating Three-and-a-half stars。"He could delight in ribald tales of travels with the band, but complain with the coldest cynicism about their performance。 He welcomed people into the house, and then groused when they hung around。 He could be a sympathetic listener, or a mocking tease who ripped at your beliefs and enjoyed the flap。 He collected people and then behaved like they were not around。 He voiced libertarianism but ruled his band with an iron rod。 He feted the disenfranchised and outcasts, yet coveted a capitalist's lifestyle for himself。 He scorned the American people for their ignorance while criticising the establishment for treating them like children。 He stood in judgement on almost anyone in the outside world - and yet I knew no other man more unassuming, humble or compassionate。" 。。。more

Juan Russo

As all things Zappa, it's very hard to grasp every detail of his inner universe so this memoir of Mrs Butcher gives us a light, fast paced account of early zappa modus operandi。。。 from an spectators point of view。。。 Nothing shocking nor scandalous, just a different angle on the Zappa personae As all things Zappa, it's very hard to grasp every detail of his inner universe so this memoir of Mrs Butcher gives us a light, fast paced account of early zappa modus operandi。。。 from an spectators point of view。。。 Nothing shocking nor scandalous, just a different angle on the Zappa personae 。。。more

William H

The very best。。。The best about one of the very best by one of the best。。。 。。。what else is there to be said?

Dawn

I read this because I love Frank Zappa's music and wanted to know more about the man。 This is, in my opinion, not a very well written memoir (if you look at my book list you'll see I read this genre extensively), however it did provide me the insights I was looking for。 My main objection is the way the author portrayed herself, her "voice," and an underlying subtext that made her come across as holier-than-thou。 It is hard to enjoy a book with a protagonist that I do not like。 Nevertheless, if, I read this because I love Frank Zappa's music and wanted to know more about the man。 This is, in my opinion, not a very well written memoir (if you look at my book list you'll see I read this genre extensively), however it did provide me the insights I was looking for。 My main objection is the way the author portrayed herself, her "voice," and an underlying subtext that made her come across as holier-than-thou。 It is hard to enjoy a book with a protagonist that I do not like。 Nevertheless, if, like me, you want to know more about the musical genius Zappa, then it's worth a read。 。。。more

Marcelo D’Angelo

Great book。 As close as you can get to the Zappa daily routine!

Fred Sampson

Full of a bit too much detail, but still entertaining。 A good taste of the various personalities, more interesting than a book of tour set-lists。

R。J。 Harries

Candid account of life with the Zappa's in the late sixties and early seventies, by a young woman from London, who encounters Frank Zappa purely by chance and is instantly fascinated by him and subsequently moves to the Hollywood Hills to be his PA。 Vivid first hand, first person viewpoint transports the reader into various crazy, embarrassing and hilarious situations in Laurel Canyon, LA。Entertaining, as a virtual observer, from inside the unconventional home of the Zappa's。 Candid account of life with the Zappa's in the late sixties and early seventies, by a young woman from London, who encounters Frank Zappa purely by chance and is instantly fascinated by him and subsequently moves to the Hollywood Hills to be his PA。 Vivid first hand, first person viewpoint transports the reader into various crazy, embarrassing and hilarious situations in Laurel Canyon, LA。Entertaining, as a virtual observer, from inside the unconventional home of the Zappa's。 。。。more

Micah

Amazing first hand account of the Mothers, FZ, and most interesting for me, the detailed descriptions of the Laurel Canyon cabin including the parade of Freaks and visiting celebrities dropping in and out。 I had Post-It notes all over these pages。 Especially where the author described FZ's studio layouts and listening room setups。 Amazing first hand account of the Mothers, FZ, and most interesting for me, the detailed descriptions of the Laurel Canyon cabin including the parade of Freaks and visiting celebrities dropping in and out。 I had Post-It notes all over these pages。 Especially where the author described FZ's studio layouts and listening room setups。 。。。more

Vanyo666

Interesting snapshot of defining years in the life and work of Zappa。 Pauline remembers every conversation too clearly to be fully believable, (she explains that all was documented in her letters home at the time) and while herself is of not much interest to me she succeeds in painting a compelling picture of life at the times in England and LA。

Duncan Smith

A bystander's view of early 1970s music Bohemia。 Pauline Butcher lived in Frank Zappa's 'commune' house in California。 Zappa was anti-drugs but in most other ways embraced the counter culture and was a prolific rock / jazz composer。 Zappa comes across as a sort of guru who effortlessly drew various hangers-on into his orbit。 An interesting look into those anarchic times。 A bystander's view of early 1970s music Bohemia。 Pauline Butcher lived in Frank Zappa's 'commune' house in California。 Zappa was anti-drugs but in most other ways embraced the counter culture and was a prolific rock / jazz composer。 Zappa comes across as a sort of guru who effortlessly drew various hangers-on into his orbit。 An interesting look into those anarchic times。 。。。more

Brandon

I enjoyed this behind the scenes look at FZ's life from his loyal secretary "Par-leen"。 Butcher's story focuses on the years 1967 to 1972 and without being trashy dishes some good dirt on what it was like to work for the musical genius Zappa。 Although the author was mesmerized by Frank's talent, she was not reserved about giving the boss some what for when necessary。 Included are some interesting descriptions of encounters with other big stars of the time including Eric Clapton, Mick Jagger and I enjoyed this behind the scenes look at FZ's life from his loyal secretary "Par-leen"。 Butcher's story focuses on the years 1967 to 1972 and without being trashy dishes some good dirt on what it was like to work for the musical genius Zappa。 Although the author was mesmerized by Frank's talent, she was not reserved about giving the boss some what for when necessary。 Included are some interesting descriptions of encounters with other big stars of the time including Eric Clapton, Mick Jagger and George Harrison among others。 。。。more

vaughn

Definitely a unique artist。 His behavior was (as in seriously misogynistically) offensive。 I always wondered if he went for the super rude to attract more attention。 Dude never looked for common ground。 He was on his own wave length。I enjoyed her story of how she met him and her views as a proper young British woman attempting to manage his affairs in the middle of what were some seriously crazy times。The author and I communicated a bit online regarding the fact that there weren't many women who Definitely a unique artist。 His behavior was (as in seriously misogynistically) offensive。 I always wondered if he went for the super rude to attract more attention。 Dude never looked for common ground。 He was on his own wave length。I enjoyed her story of how she met him and her views as a proper young British woman attempting to manage his affairs in the middle of what were some seriously crazy times。The author and I communicated a bit online regarding the fact that there weren't many women who had indicated a lot of interest in Zappa。 。。。more

Rob

Never was a fan of his music, but a story of the crazy life in Laurel Canyon from an English perspective was enjoyable to read。

Transgender Bathroom

If you'd like to know what I thought of this book, please contact me directly and I'd be happy to discuss it with you。All the best,- TB If you'd like to know what I thought of this book, please contact me directly and I'd be happy to discuss it with you。All the best,- TB 。。。more

Sean O'Brien

Funny, candid and revealing。

Laura

From BBC Radio 4 - Afternoon Drama:In 1967 Pauline Butcher, a conventional English secretary, was sent to a London hotel on a typing assignment。 The client turned out to be avant-garde American musician Frank Zappa。 Frank asked Pauline to type out the lyrics of his album, Absolutely Free, a task she found extremely baffling。 Out of this chance encounter, and unlikely meeting of minds, a friendship quickly grew, and Pauline was invited to go and work for Frank in Los Angeles, where the regular vi From BBC Radio 4 - Afternoon Drama:In 1967 Pauline Butcher, a conventional English secretary, was sent to a London hotel on a typing assignment。 The client turned out to be avant-garde American musician Frank Zappa。 Frank asked Pauline to type out the lyrics of his album, Absolutely Free, a task she found extremely baffling。 Out of this chance encounter, and unlikely meeting of minds, a friendship quickly grew, and Pauline was invited to go and work for Frank in Los Angeles, where the regular visitors to his log cabin in the Hollywood Hills included Mick Jagger, Eric Clapton and Captain Beefheart。 It was the height of the Summer of Love which would soon come to a violent end when Charles Manson soured the hippie dream。 But it would be the rise of the Women's Liberation Movement that finally led Pauline to follow her own path。Adapted by Matt Broughton from Pauline's memoir 'Freak Out - My Life with Frank Zappa。'Directed by Kate McAllA BBC Cymru Wales Production。 。。。more

Aimee

A sweet memoir of how young, sheltered model-come-secretary Pauline Butcher, an English girl finding her way in the world, changes the course of her life by a chance meeting with Frank Zappa。 Her descriptions of life at FZ's bohemian home in Laurel Canyon are very interesting。 Although she is put off by how he seems to criticize everyone and everything, as well as his chauvinism and his occasional cold, calculating demeanor, she clearly is fond of him。 Multiple times throughout the book Butcher A sweet memoir of how young, sheltered model-come-secretary Pauline Butcher, an English girl finding her way in the world, changes the course of her life by a chance meeting with Frank Zappa。 Her descriptions of life at FZ's bohemian home in Laurel Canyon are very interesting。 Although she is put off by how he seems to criticize everyone and everything, as well as his chauvinism and his occasional cold, calculating demeanor, she clearly is fond of him。 Multiple times throughout the book Butcher complains about Gail Zappa, and this got old and came across as whiny。 。。。more

David Holtzclaw

Pauline's account of life with the Zappas is funny, poignant, & quite entertaining。It certainly shows a different side of the man himself, revealing a kindness, possibly not perceived by his fans。I particularly enjoyed the visits of various rock stars & wanderers, invading the Laurel Canyoncompound。It's a must read for Zappafiles & music nuts alike! Pauline's account of life with the Zappas is funny, poignant, & quite entertaining。It certainly shows a different side of the man himself, revealing a kindness, possibly not perceived by his fans。I particularly enjoyed the visits of various rock stars & wanderers, invading the Laurel Canyoncompound。It's a must read for Zappafiles & music nuts alike! 。。。more

Dierregi

If you are interested in the 60's as a period of change, excitement, hope for the future and great music, this book might be for you。 Even if you are not an hardcore Zappa fan, like me。 I am not in the least an admirer of Zappa's music (I like some of his stuff, but on the whole, it's not my thing)。 However, I previously read a book by Pamela Des Barres and since she mentioned Zappa with great affection, I was intrigued and wanted to know more。Besides, I thought that the time and location of thi If you are interested in the 60's as a period of change, excitement, hope for the future and great music, this book might be for you。 Even if you are not an hardcore Zappa fan, like me。 I am not in the least an admirer of Zappa's music (I like some of his stuff, but on the whole, it's not my thing)。 However, I previously read a book by Pamela Des Barres and since she mentioned Zappa with great affection, I was intrigued and wanted to know more。Besides, I thought that the time and location of this book would made it - at least - an interesting chronicle of California during an exciting time。 The book deliver exactly what I expected。 It is told from the point of view of an "outsider", Zappa's English secretary who got drawn into his world merely by the strength of his personality。 From what she writes, I gather Mr。 Zappa must have had a very magnetic personality。 However, even if I checked many times his photos and some Youtube footage, his magnetism did not work on me。 Maybe it is the distance in time or just the fact that there are no rules about physical/intellectual attraction。Anyway, Pauline Butcher met Frank Zappa for a quick typing job in London, was struck by the guy and decided to try everything to move to the US and work full time for him。 She succeded, but the results were not what she expected。Having dreamt of living with Zappa in a Hollywood mansion and perhaps of upgrading their relationship to something more personal, Pauline found herself in a log cabin inhabited by a crowd of hippies, by Zappa's wife and by their first child, Moon。The relationship between Pauline and Gail (Frank's wife) is described in hilarious terms。 It sounds so very human with its mix of jelousy, admiration and developping friendship。 Gail is described as having three speeds "Slow, very slow and stop", which I found very funny。Zappa was not so easy to describe, but from Pauline's words I got the idea of a guy focussed mainly on his music and very little on people and stuff going on around him。 Self-centered, megalomaniac and slightly callous, with the occasional moments of tenderness。 Not the most flattering portrait, but I guess a sincere one。As time went by, Pauline grew to like most of the musicians and other people hanging around Zappa, but her tone is always of an outsider who knows her days in the US are numbered。 Eventually, Pauline was forced to move back to Great Britain, but even if she had not, I doubt her American experience would have developped into anything more intense than what she had during her year at the log cabine。 。。。more

Eduardo

If you're a Frank Zappa fan and already read his official bio, 'The Real Frank Zappa Book,' and maybe a few other unofficial tomes penned by professional pundits or former band members, you won't find a fresher, more insightful and, unlike Nigey Lennon's questionable memoirs, BELIEVABLE account of this complicated musical genius than Pauline Butcher's 'Freak Out!' Here's a desperately needed FEMALE perspective of what made Frank so irresistible to so many people despite his innate chauvinism, di If you're a Frank Zappa fan and already read his official bio, 'The Real Frank Zappa Book,' and maybe a few other unofficial tomes penned by professional pundits or former band members, you won't find a fresher, more insightful and, unlike Nigey Lennon's questionable memoirs, BELIEVABLE account of this complicated musical genius than Pauline Butcher's 'Freak Out!' Here's a desperately needed FEMALE perspective of what made Frank so irresistible to so many people despite his innate chauvinism, dictatorial ways, and, at times, outright hypocrisy。 Butcher devotes more than half of the entire book to recounting the brief but memorable four-month period when she, the Zappas, and immediate staff and family inhabited the legendary "log cabin" in Laurel Canyon, in exhaustive detail。 And the rest of the time spent discussing how she got into and out of Frank's organization rounds out her portrait of the man with a vivid personal snapshot of that golden late '60/early '70s period, and all it changed about the world - and herself personally。 In sum, the book fucking rocks, and I don't think you need be a Zappa-freak to love it as much as I did。 。。。more

Monkey King

Nice insight on the life of FZ outside of the music stuff。 Stories of living with FZ and family。 Interesting info on the private life of FZ between 1968 and 1971。 Connections with rock stars that I did not know Frank even knew or had met。 Pauline is a Brit who gets thrown deep into the freaks world in Laurel Canyon。 Nice to hear about the world of rock during those days。 A good read for any FZ fan。

Spike

When All is said and done amongst the Canon (non-biblical) of books written about Frank Zappa & The Mothers Of Invention there will be none to compare with Pauline Butcher's unique take on events at the Log Cabin (Frank's House) and happenings therein。 Mrs。 Butcher was hired to be FZ's secretariat from 1968 throughout 1972 but unlike the rest of the adulating hangers on she came to her job a proper British woman who only slowly learned who Frank was through meeting him, being there and living it When All is said and done amongst the Canon (non-biblical) of books written about Frank Zappa & The Mothers Of Invention there will be none to compare with Pauline Butcher's unique take on events at the Log Cabin (Frank's House) and happenings therein。 Mrs。 Butcher was hired to be FZ's secretariat from 1968 throughout 1972 but unlike the rest of the adulating hangers on she came to her job a proper British woman who only slowly learned who Frank was through meeting him, being there and living it。 This Bio is told in the "first person" placing you right there amidst the freewheeling lifestyle in Laurel Canyon that includes Captain Beefheart, Wild Man Fischer, The GTOs and into the beginnings of Bizarre Records。There will be no written recollections to compare because unlike A Pamela Zarubica (Suzy Creamcheese) or dare I say Gail Zappa (FZs wife) there was no Extreme adulation for Frank in Mrs。 Butcher's book but only a human one even though Frank if anyone deserves the Extreme adulation this is also what will come through in anyones Bios that have been and will be written covering such a vast terrain as FZs 40 plus years career, Philosophy and Music which leave little room for the "human" element。Pauline's book is as human as it comes with nary a "fact" listing but a recollection of being there。 。。。more